Self-hate : where it all began.

You were fine all your life but it started to change when you were constantly being ridiculed and criticized for things that you could hardly control. Puberty got the worse of you too. They blamed you for your skin color and blemishes. They blamed you for your crooked teeth. They rejected you, even before getting to know what you were trying to offer. The disgust … Continue reading Self-hate : where it all began.

Depression triggers and why I tend to navigate towards them.

I never paid attention as to whether I had triggers that caused my depression. Me being shy with social anxiety, having a low self-esteem and taking too much of unearned guilt is by and itself a road to depression. So I assumed it was just my personality that caused it and I still think it plays a major part. Lately I wanted to observe or recollect … Continue reading Depression triggers and why I tend to navigate towards them.

It is all about getting a routine.TMI: Part 2

Routine is where I ended my last blog. I am not sure even while writing this, whether my activities are now a routine because I don’t follow every single one of them everyday. I have been idle and depressed for so long that I forget what my abilities are. I am still learning as to what is my limit and upto where I can push … Continue reading It is all about getting a routine.TMI: Part 2

Transitioning from mental illness (TMI): Part 1

I have been struggling with social anxiety all my life and also severe depression cycles, now and then. The latest period of depression lasted for a year continuously. I still feel the residue of it sometimes. Social anxiety has been better for the first time in my life, I would say. It has got to do with the fact that I realised I have social … Continue reading Transitioning from mental illness (TMI): Part 1